Quotes

~"Seeing something you can't have is to remind you of misplaced priorities in life." - Pastor Bo
~"There is no pit so deep that God's love isn't deeper still." - Corey Tinboone
~"Just hold on tight. Jesus has your hand." - Kinsey Rose
~"You're the loves of her life, and a guy would be lucky to come in fourth." - Mr. Big
~"Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours." - Mr. Big
~"I'm speaking Chinese; Ok, just bling bling ching ching." - T.I.
~"The day that you start thinking that love is overrated is the day that you're wrong. The only thing wrong with love and faith and belief is not having it." - Haley on OTH
~"How does it feel to be curled up in the fetal position in your woman's arms you pansy?"- Matty
~"I know its one of the two dead presidents." - Mary
"Martin Luther King wasn't a president." - Me
~"Anyone who texts while driving is disrespecting life." - That'd be mom
~"I need to make some money he owes me so maybe I should sell the stuff he has here." - Me
"You could sell his clothes. They have touched his body so the soccer team would want them." Anne (no wonder you are my roommate)
~"I faked it....hahaha" - She Is Just Like Him.
~"Have a minor in business, why the **** do I need an agent?" - J
~"On the highway speeded; if I die, I hope E won't need me. Anne would miss me, but she won't miss feeding me." - J
~"If I left you in the car, I'd come back out and you'd be gone....Back up. Turn around. That guy has on a Paul Pierce jersey with red and black shoes, you know we're in the ghetto now." - J
~"E, you are my best friend in the world no matter what part you are in." - J.
~"Lise, I love you." - Madelyn
~"You are really great with these kids." - Dory

~"Three things will last forever-faith hope and love, and the greatest of these is love" - 1 Corinthians 13:13
~"And though this path can still grow dark with tears and sorrow; I know He will never leave me." - Steven Curtis Chapman
~"I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it. " - Will Smith
~"You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period." - Will Smith
~“It’s where we want to go to each and every year,” Kelly said. “It’ll be exciting that we’re in this but we want this to be old hat. This is something that you can count on each year in November, that Cincinnati will be competing for a Big East championship.”
~"Whether you know it or not, you are making a difference in people's lives." - Harvey
~"Well, I illegally possessed machine guns and thats a felony." - T.I.
"That's a felony?" - Jimmy Kimmel
"In the United States, apparently?" - T.I.
"What were you going to do with machine guns?" - Sarah Silverman
"I was going to keep them out of the hands of very bad men." - T.I.
~"You look like a strapping young lad. Walk us to the car." - Traci
~"He got in the lifeboat. He left and pushed all the lifeboats off the Titanic." - Traci
~"Are you going to all the games, or just Jamual's?" - Madison
~"For real E, I love you because I know when the going gets rough you will always be there." - : )
~"I saw her at the game and she looks like a BEAST." - J
~"We're trying to win this game son." - J
~"Have a minor in business, why the **** do I need an agent?" - J
~"On the highway speeded; if I die, I hope E won't need me. Anne would miss me, but she won't miss feeding me." - J
~"That guy has on a Paul Pierce jersey with red and black shoes, you know we're in the ghetto now." - J

Broken Rambling

Steven Curtis Chapman Favorites:
~"And though this path can still grow dark with tears and sorrow; I know He will never leave me."
~"I'm living the next five minutes like these are my last five minutes. Cause I know the next five minutes may be all I have."
~"I want You to be my one consuming passion."

~"Three things will last forever-faith hope and love, and the greatest of these is love" - 1 Corinthians 13:13
~"Give Life. Teach Love." - Daddy's Little Girls
~"God is Love. Love is Real. "
~"When are you two going to actually get together and date???" - Thanks Yono.
~"No Boom Boom." - Madelyn didn't like the fireworks.
~"Do not fear death, but rather the unlived life. You don't have to live forever. You just have to live." - Tuck Everlasting
~"You've been makin me smile all day." - Jamual
~"We're trying to win this game son." - Jamual to his teammates during Summa League
~"Are you coming to all the games or just Jamuals?" - Madison

*In the process of finding my faith again.
*Catching up with old friends is fun and it brings me back to where I need to be.
*Devehoes Summa League brings some classy moments...whether it is on or off the court.
*Enjoy random get togethers especially where we make Smores!
*I'm going to miss Tess VERY VERY VERY much.
*Not the best driver, but I enjoy driving - especially to far away places.
*Obsessed with being organized. Just look at my ipod, my movie collection, or my bookshelf!
*WANT TO GO SEE T.I., TPAIN, LLOYD, YUNG JOC, AND CIARA IN CONCERT FOR SCREAMFEST '07!!!!

A lot has been going on. A lot of it doesn't have the necessity to be rehashed. Some of it does. I don't really have anyone to talk about this kinda stuff with. So intead I'm going to lay it all out on Xanga land. Gosh, I'm nuts. It is weird how much things can change from year to year even month to month. This time last year, I had five amazing friends in Traci, Shari, Maggie, Erin and Faller. Now, I've lost three of those five.
Faller, I didn't have a chance to even save so I don't know if I would even count that in. She went off and got this creepy boyfriend - now fiance - and he's a prick. He took her away from us, but I sometimes think that she wanted to be taken away. My whole view of her has completely changed, and I don't know what was true and what was a lie she created. I hope she's  happy. I hope he doesn't abuse her. I love Faller, and I want what is best for her. Though I don't believe this is what is best for her. If she ever comes back, I'll be there for her because I would hope she would do the same for me. I keep on thinking of her, and the first thing I think about is me crying on the phone about my uncle. Its hard to lose someone who was so concerned about me when that happened. I'll always be grateful for the wonderful person she was.
Erin and I tried to save our friendship, and it keeps on slipping away from us. I hate losing her because she's my Erin. We had so much in common, but a lot of that has turned against us. We used to have UC basketball that held us together, but I think there is a jealousy thing there now. I think she wishes she was here with me, and she would be friends with them. I can't change what happened. I love my life, I love my friends, but I wish she was here beside me to take all this in. Erin was always so good to me, and we could read each other like the palm of our own hands. Maybe one day we'll return to the way we used to be. I sure hope so.
Lastly, and to me, the most shocking, is Shari. For so long, Shari and I would fight atleast once a week. It was emotionally draining and it took a lot out of me. I felt like crap and I felt like I was a horrible friend. That is never the way you should feel. But I kept on fighting for it because I thought it was worth it. Well she got tired of fighting and left it alone. She came out for my birthday, and left after I made her mad. I made her made because I wanted to be in the middle of a picture. I was drunk. Then I came home that next afternoon to write on her wall and say thanks for coming. I found out she had UNFRIENDED me. I was absolutely shocked. On my fricking birthday. How cool is that? or shall I say uncool?
We hadn't talked since, and it was really odd to me. I mean the last couple of months hadn't been good for us, but still, I didn't understand where all this was coming from. I was shocked but most of all I was hurt. I mean I understand if maybe we downgraded our friendship to a "lower status," but completely removing me? Wow, and we were best friends?? I finally emailed her my thoughts and such. I just needed to get it out. It didn't say I want to be friends with her again. In fact, it said that maybe our friendship was too much and it wasn't worth fighting for. I just can't do it anymore. I don't want to do it anymore, and I don't care to. I don't need someone telling me how much I suck, bringing me down all the time, lying, and sucking up all the positive energy. Sometimes the one or two good things are ruled out by all the bad things that conflicted us.
She eventually called me two days after I sent the email, which I was glad to see. I think that shows that somewhere deep down she still cares, and she still has common courtesy. There is no hope for us, but I'm ok with that. I don't need it back. I really feel like that some people are not meant to be in your life forever, but instead are supposed to come and then leave. But her impact on me, the good and bad, is there permanently. Unfortunately, a lot of the bad is taking over the good.
I'm always second guessing things I do, and I constantly think I'm a bad friend. I feel like I don't do enough for my friends, and then I end up getting taken advantage of. I just don't feel good enough, and it sucks because I've never had someone make me feel so useless in my life. I'm drowning in it, and it really sucks.
It was bothering me so much that I had to ask DeAngelo because I knew he would give me an answer that was real and honest:

EliLovesYou5: do you think i'm a bad person?
cincyboy6: Come on now
cincyboy6: NO HELL NO
EliLovesYou5: do you think i'm a bad friend?
cincyboy6: HELL NO great friend
cincyboy6: Why u ask
EliLovesYou5: you know shari right?
cincyboy6: No
EliLovesYou5: well she was like my best friend. and all of a sudden we aren't friends anymore. and she's blaming me because i'm not good enough or something.  so and after all this time, i begin to think i'm pretty much sucking
cincyboy6: Hey ur to nice to be mean and sometimes ur to nice but people are goin to walk in and out of ur life. Elise u knw ur not a mean person so if I was u I wouldn't even worry about serious cause a true friend wouldn't jus stop being ur friend.

It made me feel a lot better, and it is the type of person I need in my life. Yeah, it hurts me that she has done this, but in the end, it will be better for me. I shouldn't feel that way about me. Especially, when I have such amazing people around me. I've got people like Steph, who has known me since I was little. I miss her so much and I can't wait for her to be back here permanently. Steph is in Seattle for cosmetology school, and I'm hopefully going to go out and visit her before she returns in December.
Not being friends with Shari anymore has opened a lot of doors, and people have told me things that they have never said before. I hear all these stories about her, and its weird. Like I don't know what to do. Do I sit there and just listen, stick up for her, or tell them to shut up? So far, I've just sat there because it is kind of intriguing to hear the things that people hadn't been telling me because they knew we were so close. It has also opened up my free time. I'm not sitting around getting bitched at all the time, and I'm able to hang out with other people. I'm not being told I have to hang out with her all the time, which has opened up some new friendships. I love meeting new people, and it has given me a chance to prove to myself that I am a good person.
The best part is not being told that since she doesn't have a jersey on that I won't do anything for her. PLEASE you have no idea how much that hurt me. I hate it when people think I'm ditching them or not wanting to hang out with them if they call me and I'm hanging out with one of the guys and won't leave to hang out with her. That would be ditching the person I'm with. I just hate how everything came down to the basketball guys. Like if I hung out with them, she was trying to one up me. As Traci says, everything was made into a competition with me. If Marvin called me, she wanted to say someone else was calling her. Please, how old are we? It just sucks because Traci would do something wrong,  but Shari wouldn't be pissed at her...instead it all came back to me.
I've never understood it, and I never will. At this point, it doesn't really matter. We all eventually go our seperate ways. Sometimes we make mistakes with the friendships we form. As long as I am happy, and I am now. I truly am happy. I don't have to worry about getting yelled at or pissing someone off if I don't do something I don't want to do.
I'm just in a pursuit for happiness. Please join me.
Love ya, Be Safe, and Go Bearcats!

I love quotes

Pursuit of Happyness Quotes:
~"Him [Thomas Jefferson] saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it. " - Will Smith
~"You got a dream, you gotta protect it. People can't do something themselves, they wanna tell you that you can't do it. You want something? Go get it. Period." - Will Smith

Some of My Own Favorites:
~"He's an orgasm on legs." - Traci
~"Keep my name out yo mouth." - Jamual
~"You've been makin me smile all day." - Jamual
~"I can't have you out that late I care for you."
~"He got in the lifeboat and pushed the rest off the Titanic." - Traci
~"That blue shirt looks good on you. It'd look better on my floor." - Traci/Elise
~"You look like a strapping young lad. Walk us to the car." - Traci
~"You are drunk." - C
"No I'm not." - Me as I fall into a wall.
~"Where are you going?" - C
"Away." - Me
~"Wet Brick: A thing/person/situation which is completely useless or pointless; epitome of uselessness."
~"I'm a nursing major; sick people are everywhere." - Chelly
~"Its not my fault I'm white." - Me

Blessid Union of Souls:
~"You must know what you mean to me. I wish that you could always be around. I hope you find everything you are worthy of. I'm gonna miss you. But I only wish you Peace and love." - Peace and Love
~"Walk blindly to the light and reach out for his hand. Don't ask any questions and don't try to understand. Open up your mind and then open up your heart. And you will see that you and me aren't very far apart." - I Believe